chaoticsoul

im completely clueless of what im thinking now;
and have completely no idea what’s precipitating me to be so gloomy now
i miss them dearly; really missing them effing much
during my most critical moment; they left without bidding a goodbye
it caused me a breakdown; days of mental and emotional torment
it takes me so long to numb this pain; to lie to myself
that they’re gone; betterstill; they don’t exist
but there are times when memories just gushed into my mind
these black&white are like video clips; play as and when they like
i feel as though i’ve lost my memory; and regaining again
stop it please; it isn’t funny; its torturing
im still afraid of the darkness;im still fear of loneliness; lightning &thunder still terrifies me

- Gal 17